House of Guinness - Season 1 Episode 6

Last night my brother and I were watching a show about the Guinness family made by the guy who made Peaky Blinders. Not as violent as Peaky Blinders literally by hundreds of thousands of miles which is a nice reprieve but the Guinness show doesn’t hold the same addictive properties that Peaky Blinders had. Where you felt like you were inside the world and needed to stay despite the fear and violence. But yeah House of Guinness, I guess is the name, is good and entertaining and enjoyable. Season 1 Episode 6, the sister who looks like a cartoon woman was talking to her cousin and said this about her two brothers, “Edward acts so stern and serious because he is afraid of his own kindness. Arthur acts so frivolous because he’s afraid of his own seriousness. All men are boys playing hide-and-seek, desperately hoping someone is still looking for them.” And I was lowkey whacked in the heart by this line and delivery, she said it with a loving smile, and I said to my brother, bro, did you hear that line? I rewinded it and we listened to it again and then we paused the show for him to walk around for a few minutes and then he came back and I was still sitting on the couch thinking about what she said. He said, “Yeah,” and I said, “What are you afraid of, bro?” and we looked at each other and continued thinking. I looked upset in my mind’s eye, like, I was concerned. My eyebrows were pulled together in consternation. What she said made me feel shocked, like I was worried for myself. What am I afraid of, what am I hiding from? I am desperately hoping someone is still looking for me. Or I have felt that way my whole life. I don’t know if I’ve already grown out of it because I'm so familiar with the feeling that even if it’s not inside me anymore it feels like it’s still here inside me. Her words were affecting. I said, “I think I’m afraid of my own seriousness,” my brother nodded and smiled and then I said, “and you might be afraid of your own frivolity”. And he nodded and shrugged and we started laughing and nodding and agreeing. It was all true and real, everything she said and everything we were saying. We pressed play and continued watching. It didn’t require further discussion, she had laid it out for us like a sister would. Easy and straight and not confusing. We didn't have to do much but let it get us.